rainspirit | (no subject)

Kind of freaked out.

Everything's crashing around my ears. I know I'm not dealing with it correctly. I should be planning ahead, getting as much done as I possibly can. A few feeble attempts at clearing away the debris isn't good enough - I need to finally get my act together.

I can't trust my brain to retain all the information anymore.

Still recovering from a cold. Not doing enough to counter-act it. Not taking enough medicine or drinking enough water. Made some tea, but waiting for it to cool down. All the food I bought is spoiling fast. Don't know if the corn I have left is still good or not.

I'm scared and I don't know who to call. I don't know how to fix this.

I think the worst thing is that I used to have people online that I could talk to, but since I quit LJ RP and haven't been keeping up with anything else, I've basically been distanced from almost everyone.

My room is messy as heck - not irretrievable - but I can't find my phone and I have to call someone urgently. But I also have a thing on the stove. If I go downstairs I'll forget about the phone, I'm sure. I feel like the lack of food and the sick is making me space out in all things... getting scared about it.

I don't know what to do.