Was Blind, But Now I See

I wrote this on the Laramie Project's Facebook page, last Wednesday.

So yeah... I've been reading each and every one of your messages here, guys. I've been trying to think of something to say, because lord knows I express myself better in the written word than the verbal.

You all can say, each of you, why this play has been a profound experience. For myself, I came into this because I was excited to work with Roger Carr again, on whatever mad scheme he had in mind. I came into this play with no expectations, and I've been marvelling at what I've found in myself, and in this world, reflected in the events of our play.

I'm not very good with connecting with people on a very wide range. Heck, I'll be first to say that I didn't get around to memorizing many people's names till we started performing... I was still trying to remember who's who. And yet... I do feel a connection, in a way you can only have when pulling off something incredible every day with a whole crowd of talented people. Tonight I sang for the first time in the "Angels" scene - actually sung, in a way where I felt truly connected with all of you, with the scene, with the soul of the play.

And for all that I was off my game in other ways, for all that I noticed mistakes, critiqued certain aspects, wondered about the audiences' temperament... every single day, something amazing happens, someone does something novel and beautiful with their small part that just makes this whole play come alive. Every day, one of us is on our game to make the whole group look great. And though I don't know if we'll ever see each other after this, I know that in this moment, in this time, we are as one.

I want to thank each one of you for being part of my life. I hope my influence on yours has been just as impactful. (Firefox spellcheck tells me that last one's not a word, but damnit, that's the word I want and that's what I'll use!!)

Here's to us. :)

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So yeah.