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Jul. 3rd, 2011 07:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rainspiritMan, today has been such a let-down.
Relatively easy clean-up day. Had a great lunch with the cook at the marina, though it was amusingly inept in some ways - lukewarm tea? Really? How hard is it to screw that up? But the avocado dip and the sandwich were pretty okay, and the Caesar salad.
But J's depressed, S is introverted (as she usually is after a week), and most of the others are off doing their own things. Feeling a little sad - it's weird how when left to my own devices in this place, I get unhappy, but it's the way it is. Saturday's the day when I REALLY emotionally recover, and Sunday's the day I get enough done to do something fun with people. Not so this time, I guess.
I'm trying not to fall into self-loathing again, like last night. I get so narrow-sighted sometimes - like a mirror gets put in front of my eyes and I'm glaring at it, thinking that's what everyone else thinks of me. It's hard to move out from that. I hope I cheer up by the time the new student group comes in.
Last week was a really, REALLY good group. Lots of good times, and lots of opportunities to try my new board game (Betrayal at House on the Hill), which is quickly becoming one of my favourites. It's a lot like Talisman, except much, MUCH shorter, and the randomized competitiveness gets my problem-solving muscles going. Great amount of atmosphere too - I made it a house rule that the events cards had to be read out in as dramatic a voice as possible - like "SCARY STORY YOU GUYS" levels of dramatic.
Other good news: Big sister's arrived on the island from the other side of the country! Gonna see her and Mom tomorrow, I think. Maybe have a movie night, which will be fun. Gotta warn the cook about that - might have to stay the night and go back in the morning. Rozsa will be happy.
Someone said they wanted to see more of my writing - that a recent Facebook antic (the return of Lord Fishington) made them want to look through more of the stuff I've read. Am I ready for it yet? Ready to set aside the bullshit and make something cool?
I don't know yet. Have to stop putting aside the letter though. Writing it tonight. Before anything else.
Let's do this.
Relatively easy clean-up day. Had a great lunch with the cook at the marina, though it was amusingly inept in some ways - lukewarm tea? Really? How hard is it to screw that up? But the avocado dip and the sandwich were pretty okay, and the Caesar salad.
But J's depressed, S is introverted (as she usually is after a week), and most of the others are off doing their own things. Feeling a little sad - it's weird how when left to my own devices in this place, I get unhappy, but it's the way it is. Saturday's the day when I REALLY emotionally recover, and Sunday's the day I get enough done to do something fun with people. Not so this time, I guess.
I'm trying not to fall into self-loathing again, like last night. I get so narrow-sighted sometimes - like a mirror gets put in front of my eyes and I'm glaring at it, thinking that's what everyone else thinks of me. It's hard to move out from that. I hope I cheer up by the time the new student group comes in.
Last week was a really, REALLY good group. Lots of good times, and lots of opportunities to try my new board game (Betrayal at House on the Hill), which is quickly becoming one of my favourites. It's a lot like Talisman, except much, MUCH shorter, and the randomized competitiveness gets my problem-solving muscles going. Great amount of atmosphere too - I made it a house rule that the events cards had to be read out in as dramatic a voice as possible - like "SCARY STORY YOU GUYS" levels of dramatic.
Other good news: Big sister's arrived on the island from the other side of the country! Gonna see her and Mom tomorrow, I think. Maybe have a movie night, which will be fun. Gotta warn the cook about that - might have to stay the night and go back in the morning. Rozsa will be happy.
Someone said they wanted to see more of my writing - that a recent Facebook antic (the return of Lord Fishington) made them want to look through more of the stuff I've read. Am I ready for it yet? Ready to set aside the bullshit and make something cool?
I don't know yet. Have to stop putting aside the letter though. Writing it tonight. Before anything else.
Let's do this.
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Date: 2011-07-07 09:43 am (UTC)